I'm sitting at this cafe, waiting for tuition which will commence in 90 mins time.

The cafe is rather empty and i've just finished my meal; i'm crossing my fingers that they will not shoo me out or anything.

There's like alot of band related stuff despite SYF being over for 2 weeks already.

School performance, college day, perhaps even presentation night.

I guess it's the price that we have to pay for being successful in SYF.

I was looking at those big plasmas in the school canteen today and noticed the video of our expression after our results was announced.

The tears, the joy, even my fat face had a cameo role for 3 secs.

It's a satisfying feeling. But i guess that's the last time that i'll have it in all my band life.

And the bp concert, i'm rather hesitant to join it suddenly.

It's not that i think it's taking too much time.

I want to join and perform for that band.

But i just heard that apparently kumar doesn't like me to join his section because i was after not trained by him.

I find it quite a biased view to just judge me like that.

It's not as if i cannot play percussion at all. It's not as if the four years that he thought the rest of them will allow them to have an edge above me.

I think that they'll inevitably be better because 4 years of percussion is much better than just 4 months.

But i think that all this months of practising has made me improved quite abit already, just need to work on stroking as i've been neglecting it for SYF.

Hah, i think there's no point writing all this here.

It's like nobody will see it and words don't hold substance, skills does.

Anyway,school's great.

05/09 is really a wonderful fun class to be in.

There's like not a boring or depressing day around.

But i just hope that i'll be able to find the determination and the focus to concentrate during the june holidays to get over my mid years.

PW is not going at a good rate at all.

I think that the whole group, including myself has to start realising the importance of this pw.

It's just not tight, everything's not tight.

And i better curb my temper and mood because i get frustrated too easily due to exasperation.

And i'm also getting violent in class, especially with joash who has been a victim of my pinching, smacking, pullups etc.

And he said a ridiculous story of how a fat boy used to pinch him alot in the past and that's why he doesn't like people to pinch him.

Too bad.

Anyway, the staff is staring at me again.
I guess i'd better make a move soon.

Bye guys

P.S this is the longest post in like.... a year?

Hope you enjoyed.

And don't doze off reading it